New Year 2013

Apologies for the late post. New Years day didn't give me a whole lot of time to write a post so this will be 2 days worth instead.

New years eve began quieter than usual. It basically involved me killing time until 4pm, whereby I headed off to go meet my girlfriend. On the way out the door an old friend of mine messaged me saying she was in a bit of a state, and when I enquired further, she stated that her grandma was admitted to hospital, and probably would not live to see the New Year.

I had no idea what to say to this, and nothing I could say could improve the situation at all. That's one hell of a dark new year no matter what way you look at it. All I could do was offer my condolences to the poor girl and try to make sure she was alright, but at the end of the day no words can stop the inevitable. All I could do was comfort the girl while she watched it unfold.

After about an hour and a half of bus travel and walking, I found myself at my girlfriend's home. The main memory I have of that night was of her and I cuddled up when the fireworks were lighting the sky. It occurred to me that around the world there were millions of guys that would be going to these New Year parties with the desperate idea of getting laid, most returning empty handed, and yet I had all I wanted in a women wrapped in my arms at this moment. In that regard I consider myself to be a very lucky man, it's not everybody who gets that kind of love from their other halves, if they have one at all.

We spent the rest of new years morning, and much of the afternoon rooted to that spot. Only when it was just turning evening did I manage to leave her house and get a train back home (buses weren't running), and walk the rest of the way. Most of which was a very dark country path, some of which was absolutely covered by trees, making the path pitch black. I walked on through despite being nervous about this prospect.

It is not so much the dark that we fear when we are in a dark room, the fear is in being almost completely blind, a sensation most of us are not used to. But at the end of this path, the traveler is rewarded on a clear day with a beautiful vista of stars and constellations. Many of which you could otherwise not see if so much as one streetlamp was nearby.

It reminds me of how small the earth is in relation to the universe, and at the same time, put paid to the theory of Creationism, supporters of which say that the chances are impossibly slim of creating an environment suitable for life. While this is true, it should be noted that the universe is infinitely large, and therefore holds planets of every conceivable environment inside it; one that could support life was going  to happen somewhere. It's not like I trust the Catholic Church at any rate; if their Bible is the word of God, then the church is the Word's editor. And the church is made up of humans who are just as corruptible as any other. They have removed books from their scriptures, censored literary works and even condemned people to house arrest because things came out that did not suit them. It is not inconceivable that given that kind of power again, they may resume doing these things. I wouldnt be surprised if they jailed Darwin or Dawkins given those powers again.